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Remember when I ran into the elliptical? I am going to have the coolest scar from it. Random info for you guys :-)
When I skipped the gym the last four days I also skipped drinking water instead of soda and energy drinks. A fact my body made very clear to me in my class tonight. I had the shakes, my thighs and arms were seriously shaking uncontrollably. I skipped running after as I didn’t feel like landing on my face. Google is awesome by the way.
I really need to get the t fixed in my tattoo. It bothers the crap out of me that it is so much lighter than the other letters.
I have written and deleted the most pointless things in this spot. Then I realized everything I write is pointless.

Oh my goodness I have bored you all 1,000 times. Sorry about that  πŸ’‹

Oh my goodness I have bored you all 1,000 times. Sorry about that πŸ’‹

β€’ She is alive and has no service. I wish she understood how protective I can be with people I care about. She thinks it is funny.

β€’ I got my new glasses. It is freaky I feel all “2 bottles in”. They are super cute though πŸ˜‰

Super freaked out

So, I can’t get ahold of Mel. iMessages are getting kicked back. Her phone goes immediately to voicemail, which she never set up. I have googled accidents and her name. Her two kids are with her and I am starting to completely freak out. She left Saturday morning. I got my last message at 7:45 p.m.

Interestingly enough I am terrified of calling my aunt. I don’t want to know for sure if something terrible happened. I am pretty sure that she wouldn’t even think to call me if something happened. Because if something did she is dealing with her own daughter and her grand babies.

If she is okay I am going to kick her ass. If she isn’t well…

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β€’ My tummy is all tight like when depression is settling. I will fight that tooth and nail. He isn’t worth it.

β€’ No one wanted to play.

β€’ My cousin went to California last night. She drives like a crazy woman on speed and I haven’t heard from her since last night. I am starting to get worried.

β€’ I am not looking forward to this year. I have a feeling I am going to get sucked in to some bad mojo at work. I also worry tons about my mom. She seems to be 20 years older than she is. I just want one year of me, for me.

β€’ I skipped the gym for four days and I can’t blame Mel for today. She left yesterday afternoon. I feel like shit and I ate crap too. Tomorrow I start from scratch.

β€’ I hate that I have cut ties, but I still find myself thinking about him. I still think maybe I will see him. Maybe he will visit. They are fleeting thoughts but they happen. They happen more than I care to admit. As do the how could you be so stupid all these years thoughts. And the HER? Really? HER? Also I think about all I gave up, all I did for him, and also about our sex life. Just a jumble of thoughts that I wish would go away.

β€’ The furries are acting weird still. It is strange when I worry when they are not asses over meals.

I just covered my coffee table in contact paper. Hello college. πŸŽ“

Cutting someone out of your life does not mean you don’t think about them.

I managed to spend almost as much on supplies for my little porch ceiling project as I would have to have it done by someone who knows what they are doing. It is still not done, but I will get more stuff tomorrow to finish it. It will be the most expensive no one will know it was done project ever πŸ˜›

I have two weeks to finish all the projects I put off this summer. Better get cracking. πŸ”§πŸ”©πŸ”¨ can’t lose a finger unless I try right?

My friend asked if since I am doing more home projects if that means I am putting off moving. Nope, it just means I am keeping myself busy and that I love my little castle. I am terrified of letting other people live here in my house. I am more terrified of not trying to find a real life.

Either my furries are sick or Mel put a voodoo curse on them. I haven’t been woken up at the crack of dawn for food since she was here. They also don’t follow me around two hours before dinner time anymore. It is weird.

I wish I knew what to do. I mean with everything. I feel like a Clash song.

Tutu is made and others are planned for my little band of runners for the race. I suppose I should actually get better at running for this 😜. Mel and I suck, but K is an actual runner and will probably be drunk at the finish line by the time we cross.

I have sealed the joints and mesh taped the patio ceiling. I actually sound like I know what I am doing right? No worries, I don’t. I am good at trying my best though. I ran out of compound so I can’t finish all the areas that I popped off the cracking compound and paint though. Guess I am running to Home Depot.

I am watching hemlock grove. Netflix is a bad, bad thing.

My Saturday is home improvement followed by taking a math test for practice. Holy hell I am a bad ass of the highest order.

Hope you all can stay on the opposite side of my bad assery today. πŸ˜‰

This is what happens when you come home late from dinner and it is Friday night and you haven’t slept in days. You start chipping paint off your patio ceiling so you can start your new solo project. Fixing the patio ceiling is going to take hours and hours to do in the hot temps. Funny thing is, if I do it right you won’t be able to tell I did anything. 

By the way, I was up on a ladder in a vans t-shirt and a pair of undies. I hope my neighbors sleep more than I do.

This is what happens when you come home late from dinner and it is Friday night and you haven’t slept in days. You start chipping paint off your patio ceiling so you can start your new solo project. Fixing the patio ceiling is going to take hours and hours to do in the hot temps. Funny thing is, if I do it right you won’t be able to tell I did anything.

By the way, I was up on a ladder in a vans t-shirt and a pair of undies. I hope my neighbors sleep more than I do.

Friday Friday Friday Friday Friday

β€’ I typed Friday five times, get it? 😜 (Yes, I am a dork)

β€’ I had the best time while Mel was here. She stayed two nights. We went all over town. She also got me on another home improvement idea/kick. She is awesome like that. Before she left this afternoon we priced out the project at Home Depot and she made the boys who work there embarrassed because they were treating her like she didn’t know anything and then she most calmly, politely, and completely eviscerated them with her uber knowledge 😜

β€’ She wants to help me fix up my mom’s house too. Do all the projects my mom and dad wanted done before he got sick. She keeps saying she is going to do them, I think she is putting them off because my dad isn’t here to say it is a good idea.

β€’ I’m going to sushi tonight. I am very pleased about that fact. Oh and my blood tests are all good. He is a cheater bastard, but it is only emotional scars not physical trauma so yay!

β€’ I was tagged in the 5 photos thing. I wish I participated in the whole posting pictures thing online. Sorry followthoroughorfuckoff. Thanks for thinking of me though. 😊

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I am a good cousin/friend. I am exhausted and I am required to go to this guys house with her tonight because they both want to jump each other. She doesn’t want to, so I am her appointed cock block. I just want to crawl into my bed, not be the chick that some guy is annoyed with because he thinks I am the one keeping him from getting laid.

I deserve a medal or at least a free coffee (YAWN)